Blossoming

I recently received a really pretty flower necklace from my Aunt. I like it a lot. It reminds me of the flower on Mulan. I am reminded of her conversation with her father and him comparing her to a blossom flower. He makes the comment: “My, what beautiful blossoms we have this year. But look, this one is late. But I bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all” :)

This comment takes place after Mulan meets with the matchmakers and fails miserably. She is told that she will never marry. Which is how I’ve felt a lot this year. Being 25, and still single, aka a menace to society, at times I feel really hopeless. It’s hard when practically all my friends from High School are married.

I like Mulan. She’s so brave and courageous. So comparing myself to her.. well that’s fun. :) I want to be brave like her. I may be a late bloomer to some, but like Mulan’s father says, “I’ll bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all.” :)

So for my new year’s resolution, I’m going to work on blossoming into the flower Heavenly Father knows I can become. :)

Love,
Sarah

Ultimate Fantasy

“Love just doesn't happen to girls like me; girls who build their hopes on an intricate web of day dreams. The truth is that everyone has issues and maybe building up a fake, perfect man in my mind was my biggest issue of all. I've been walking around with the ghost of my magic man. He's been haunting me, keeping me from a world of opportunities that were right in front of me.
There's no such thing as perfection. Love is for people who are realistic and smart enough to open up their heart and minds and to realize that a real relationship is the ultimate fantasy."
-Lane from Beauty and the Briefcase

Now, I’m not as extreme as Hillary Duff’s character Lane in this movie “Beauty and the Briefcase” with her crazy list for her “magic man” but I do agree I need to be a bit more realistic. Maybe then I’ll actually find this Love that all these chick flicks talk about. lol- maybe.

Sincerely,
Sarah

Freddy the Frog

[I wrote this story based of the popular story “Princess and the Frog” when I was playing a story game with my friend Julee. We tell each other a random noun and challenge each other to tell a story. She told me to tell her a story about a frog, and this is what I came up with. Enjoy.]

Once upon a time there was this beautiful princess name Julee. One day she was about playing and she meet this frog name Freddy. He like her and wanted to be her friend. However secretly he wanted to be more than friends, but didn’t dare tell her that. He was scared if he told her that she would run away. So he thought if they started out friends she would grow to care for him in the same way he cared about her.

What he didn’t know, is that she had a hunch about his little crush. She didn’t tell him that because she wasn’t sure what she thought of him. Plus he only asked for friendship, so that’s what she was. A friend. He was nice frog, a good friend that she comes to care about, but she wasn’t sure if she could ever grow to like him in that way. She was grateful to be friends and hoped she would be able to make up her mind about how much she like him before he asked her to be more than friends. He was cute.. for a frog that is. but she didn’t want to marry a frog. She wanted to marry a prince. She was a nice girl, and was very good at looking past a person’s outside appearance and seeing the beauty within. Or in some causes the ugly within.

In her time growing to know the frog, she could tell he was really great friend, one she could talk to easily, and never once made her feel stupid. He actually made her feel the complete opposite! When she was with him she felt so special. So after a while of being friends, she decided to give him a chance. He finally got the courage to ask her out to the theater, as friends of course- he was worried if he called it a date she would freak out! They went and had a good time.

After a few weeks of going out and having fun doing all sort of fun activities, she grew to care for the frog and he grew to care for her even more than he had already did. One night after one of their outings, as he was leaving she told him to wait, and he stopped, paused waiting for what she had to say, and she kissed him! It was quite the pleasant surprise for him, and for her! Because after she kissed him, he magically turned into a prince! A very handsome prince at that! They were so happy and so in love that they decided to get married and lived happily ever after.

The end. :)

Attitude

Today I was talking to my Aunt who is unfortunately going through a divorce. She gave my brother and me some advice, about finding out who we are, learn to stand on our own, and be true to who we are. Also that happiness doesn’t come from another person.

“You can’t find happiness in another person, it’s already there within you. Sometimes we think others can make us happy but that happiness comes from within. Our own happiness can influence others to perhaps feel it inside themselves.” And then she shared a really neat quote that goes along with this: “Attitude is more influential than action. Attitude is a very powerful form of action. Faith is the most powerful form of attitude”

Which reminds me of another quote: “Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.” Our attitudes matter a lot in regards to our own personal happiness. We always have a choice on what attitude to have and how to react to another person’s attitude. We can choose to take offence when someone is in a bad mood and says something rude, or does something mean, OR we can try to understand where they are coming from. Try to see things from their point of view. Gain a new perspective. We can’t possible know exactly what a person is going through, or what they may be thinking, but we can at least try and understand where they are coming from.

So, the moral of this post.. Happiness won’t magically appear when I get married. It’s already there within me. I am for the most part a happy person. however there are those days when I am not so happy. It’s all about attitude and staying in control of it. I can choice to be happy by the way I act. A little thing.. that makes a big difference.

Sincerely,
Sarah

Cook Book

For Christmas today I received a cook book. I asked for one and Daddy provided. ;) “52 Weeks of Recipes” by Clark and Kathryn Kidd. A beginner cook book for nervous cooks- like me. Perfect. :) I’ve been wanted to try and be more adventurous with my cooking ability/ skills. There is just only so much pasta, frozen foods, box foods (you know, hamburger helper and mac and cheese) and fast food one can take. lol! So I’m super excited for my cooking adventure to go further. I thought it would be fun to read the introduction and man was I right! I laugh when I read- and I quote: “And when the time comes for you to think of finding the right person to marry, your prospective spouse will be a lot more impressed if you can put together a good meal than if you simply know the best place in town to get pizza.” LOL! SO very funny! I’ve been told that if I knew how to cook I’d probably be married by now. Bahaha! I just thought that was really funny. (I doubt that’s my only problem. haha) I mostly want to learn how to cook for survival reasons. Don’t you just hate it when you look in the fridge and/ or in the pantry and there’s nothing to eat? Really there is, I’m just sick of eating the same old stuff all the time. I need variety. One this new book of mine will help me gain. :) Yay for Christmas! Yay for Dads! Let the learning begin! ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Worst Things

There are worst things in life than being single. I’ve been told my stepmom that is better to be alone than with the wrong person. I defiantly don’t want to settle. Be with the wrong person- someone who won’t treat me right. My standers may be considered too high to some, but to me they are just right. I’m not looking for perfect, there’s no such thing. Some days the single blues hit hard and it feels like the end of the world, but then I have to remember.. there are worst things in life than being single. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Least Expect it

I’ve been told that it, meaning my happily-ever-after, when-my-prince-will–show-up-out-of-no-where- and-into-my-life, will happen when I “least expect it” So I try to do that. Try to go on my daily life not expecting “it” to happen. But deep down inside, I am expecting it, so of course it’s not happening. Make sense? Yeah.. I don’t understand it either.. ;) lol

It’s just.. wouldn’t it seem that the more logical thing to think would be that if you are expecting nothing to happen then nothing will happen? And that if you are expecting something to happen then something will happen.. right? So, I’m told I shouldn’t be trying so hard or worrying to much about it, but how can I not? Just something to think about..

Love,
Sarah

What Women Want..

Daniel: What do women want? I mean, I can't figure it out. They want us to ask; they don't want us to ask; they want us to make a move, not make a move. What do you people want?
Holly: I'll tell you. But you have to promise not to say I told you.
Daniel: I, I swear.
Holly: Because it's a sacred secret.
Daniel: A sacred secret.
Holly: You ready?
Daniel: Yeah.
Holly: You sure?
Daniel: I think so.
Holly: [whispering] We have absolutely no idea what we want.
Daniel: I knew it!
(Movie Quote from PS I Love You)

It’s True. We have no idea what we want. We think we do, but the reality is that we don’t. Like I mention in my Date Doctor post with the quote from Hitch, “the fact is that just like the rest of us, even a beautiful woman doesn't know what she wants until she sees it.” And even then I’m not sure if we know it. I’ve been thinking since my “Exact Love Life” post.. That I really don’t know what I want. I hope that Hitch is right, and that I will know it when I see it.

Sincerely,
Sarah

Invisible

Do you ever feel that you are invisible? Well I have. Many times in my life. I hate it. I don’t know why, perhaps part of it is my shyness. But even in a group of people I know, I can’t help but feel invisible at times. Disregarded and/or forgotten. I say something and it’s as if no one can hear me. Like I don’t matter. I hate feeling this way. :(

Sincerely,
Sarah

Perseverance

A while ago I heard this girl make this comment: “I’m 21 and hopeless in ever getting married.”

And I remember thinkin.. if you’re 21 and hopeless, what does that make me still single at 25? A lost cause?

It’s not easy being a “lost cause” :(

But then I remember the quote I found the other day while I was looking up a quote for my last blog post, from the movie “Hitch” about Perseverance:

Hitch: Do you know the definition of perseverance, Miss Melas?
Sara: An excuse to be obnoxious?
Hitch: Continuing a course of action without regard to discouragement, opposition or previous failure, over

I like that. Continuing a course of action without a regard to discouragement, opposition or previous failure. :)

New Goal: to have Perseverance in all I do. Try I must.. Succeed I will. ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Wanted: Date Doctor

Basic principles: no woman wakes up saying, "God, I hope I don't get swept off my feet today!" Now, she might say, "This is a really bad time for me," or something like, "I just need some space," or my personal favorite, "I'm really into my career right now." You believe that? Neither does she. You know why? Because she's lying to you, that's why. You understand me? Lying! It's not a bad time for her. She doesn't need any space. And she may be into her career, but what she's really saying is, "Uh, get away from me now," or possibly, "Try harder, stupid." But which one is it? Sixty percent of all human communication is nonverbal, body language; thirty percent is your tone. So that means that ninety percent of what you're saying ain't coming out of your mouth. Of course she's going to lie to you! She's a nice person. She doesn't want to hurt your feelings. What else she going to say? She doesn't even know you... yet. Luckily, the fact is that just like the rest of us, even a beautiful woman doesn't know what she wants until she sees it, and that's where I come in. My job is to open her eyes. Basic principles: no matter what, no matter when, no matter who... any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet. He just needs the right broom.
(Hitch)

Does it ever occur to women that maybe a guy might like to have a plan, you know, because he's nervous? He's not sure that he could just walk up to you and you'd respond if he said "I like you." "I like you." "I like you!"

(Hitch.. again)

Some days I really wish I had a “date doctor” Like Hitch. A coach who could help me out in this silly dating game. How can I send hints or signals to a guy that I am into him? It’s not like I could just come out and say it. Why does dating have to be so dang difficult? Seriously. It’s a Lame Game. Period.

Sincerely,
Sarah

WALL

A structure built to protect and surround a position or place for defensive purposes.
(dictionary.com)

Yesterday I did it. I talk to this new boy interest I have. Problem is, he’s shy too. I don’t know if shy + shy= a good idea. (?) We both have these “walls” up. I have been working on letting my down. However, I’m not sure if he is interested in me or if he will ever be interested in putting his wall down to let me in. In thinking about it, one visit doesn’t earn the right for entry. Poco a poco. Little by little. I have to remind myself that he has no idea that I like him. He’s a boy after all. They are clueless. I gotta find a way to show I am interested in getting to know him and him me. Wish me luck. :)

Love,
Sarah

Divine Intervention

Yesterday I was texting STB about a lunch date he had. I wished him luck and told him I’d pray for him. His response? “You really think I need divine intervention? That’s a little harsh.”

I of course didn’t mean it that way. I told him that I figured a little help from on high won’t hurt. Then he started talking about a sniper and how that could hurt. Perhaps, depending on who side he was on. lol.

Anyways, Divine Intervention. He may not need it, but I sure do. I need the Lord every hour. Just like the hymn says. (pg 98) In everything I do.

“For without God I am nothing, but because I know I am a daughter of God, I am everything” Mom (see my post “His Everything” 11/15)

“Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things;” (Alma 26:12)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Pool Analogy

Tonight I went out with a few friends to play pool. I realized.. we can compare pool to dating. In a way.. I mean.. when you have the balls lined up.. you have a greater shot at getting the ball you want in the hole. If you hit it right that is. It takes skill and some practice. It takes aim and some planning. If you don’t plan, and just hit to hit, you most likely won’t get anywhere. Make sense? Tonight while playing there were times when nothing was lined up and there was nothing I could do to get them to line up right. so I just hit to hit with no real plan. But there were other times when I took a shot that I took time preparing my aim and thinking the shot the whole way through. :) There have been times in my dating.. “career” ( I suppose that’s a good word for it) where I have plan it out. Taken time to look at all the different angles and made plan in aiming my shot. Most the time, however, I don’t make it in. It gets easier with practice (so I'm told) in landing that date or two. ;) Also like dating, pool can get very frustrating when things don’t go as planned. Which happens a lot for me. I suppose I should get out there and practice some more.. ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

The Cuddle Test

It’s Christmas time!! (Yay!) Which means it’s time again for Christmas Wishes. A project my work puts together for the local elementary school every year. The kids make an ornament that list a want and a need- a wish for this Christmas. I love it. :) The community helps take part by choosing one of these ornaments and shop for these young kids in need. They bring the gifts back unwrapped. My job is to wrap them. I love it. :D I love seeing how giving people can be.

Yesterday I came across an adorable stuff teddy bear! :D I couldn’t help but cuddle with him. One of my co-workers told me I wasn’t allowed to do that. I told him that I had to- it was part of my job of quality control. I had to make sure the bear passed the cuddle test. He did. ;) I admit I was tempted to keep him for myself. It was nice having someone to cuddle with. ;) Hehe.

So yeah.. that is the cuddle test. Maybe if I’m lucky I’ll get my own teddy bear to cuddle with Christmas season. ;)

Love,
Sarah

Business Cards

LOL! My sister-in-law Hillary is SO funny! I told her about this new boy interest of mine and how I’m working up the courage to go up and introduce myself, and talk to him. She told me that when she gets her new printer up and working she is going to make me up some little business cards, which are going to say, “Hi. My name is Sarah, and I would like to make your acquaintance. My number is..” So that when I freeze up I can just hand him the card and run! LOL! LOL! :D

Love,
Sarah

Dreamer

I’m not sure if it’s a girl thing or just a me thing, but I can’t help that when I first start dating a guy.. actually before that even lol! I imagine what I’d be like down the road. Like what it would be like to hold his hand, or play with his hair, or even dancing. :) Sometimes I even wonder what it be like to kiss him or what our wedding day would be like. I know! I know! - I’m such a girl!

I think what my problem/ biggest weakness is.. is that I’m a dreamer. I think though that I can make this weakness a strength (Ether 12:27) by my desire to write these make belief stories into novels. I think that is why I’d be a good author. I love to read and I think once I learn how to write I could write a pretty darn good book. ;) Multiple even! I like this plan. :)


Sincerely,
Sarah

Exact Love Life

Recently I watched the chick flick “The Wedding Date” Two lines from the film stuck out to me. The first one is when Kat is talking to Nick about his article.

Kat: “You say, and I quote: ‘Every woman has the exact love life she wants.’ That seems like a broad generalization. Do you honestly believe that I want to be single and miserable?”

Then again, later in the film her Dad brings up and quotes the same line.

“I remember reading a fascination article in the New York Times Magazine once, where this guy said, ‘Every woman has the exact love life she wants.’ You know what? I agree with him. But I refuse to believe this this is what you want, Kat. Ever since you were little, you’ve always worried about what other people think. Now, come on. What do you think?”

I never really thought of that before. “Every woman has the exact love life she wants.” Huh? Do I? I don’t think so, but maybe he has a point. I have worried way too much of what others think, that I hid who I am, and use my shyness as an excuse. Am I really trying to have my ideal love life I think I want?

The second line that stuck out to me, that ties into this thought of mine, is:
“The hardest thing is loving someone and then having then having the courage to let them love you back.”

It’s like my sponge analogy I shared yesterday. It’s hard, like rock hard, to love someone, letting yourself fall- especially lovey dovey love, fairy tale type love. To love someone, and then in return having the courage to let them love you back. Giving your whole heart to this one person, and trusting him to not break it in the end.

In thinking about this, I don’t think I’ve ever allowed myself to give my heart to someone. I’ve always been too afraid. Afraid to fall, and not having a guarantee that someone will be there to catch me. The reality is, the only one who has ever broken my heart is me, by not allowing myself to truly fall. :(

-Sarah

Love Like A Sponge

In Relief Society, for our lesson we talked about love and how we need to love like a sponge.

Let me back up. Annie, our teacher, shared with us an object lesson. She had two volunteers. The first one she asked to use a rock to move water to one bowl to the next. And the second volunteer used a sponge. The sponge had a better result than the rock did. Obviously. ;)

The rock wasn’t able to absorb the water. Some was able to get on the rock and drip off of it when placed above the empty bowl. So it is with our hearts. If we are “cold hearted” and close our hearts and it become as hard as a rock, we can’t absorb, or share love with others.

However with the sponge we could easily absorb the water, and squeeze it out into the empty bowl much easier and faster. :) When we are open to receiving love, then are we able to share that love with others.

We talked about different ways we could share love with others. By serving one another, after all actions speak loader than words. We can show love by hugs (with a squeeze ;)) and/or simply writing a letter and letting those we love know that we love them. ;) There are many ways we can show love.

It is important to love, after all.. it’s a commandment. ;)
John 15:12 “This is my commandment, that ye love one another, as I have loved you.”

Love,
Sarah

Like Royalty

Today for break the fast the brothern of the ward served the sisters, due to us sisters winning the food drive a while back. ;) It was so great being treated like royalty. They showed us to our seat and pulled out our chairs before we sat down. I even went to remove my coat and was stopped by a gentleman who told me he would get that for me. :) It was awesome. I really felt like I was someone special. It was a very nice experience. :)

Love,
Sarah

Somebody to Love

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1bffIJDTrEM&NR=1
Ella Enchanted version of Queen's "Somebody to Love"

Waiting

One of the worst things in dating is the waiting. I was talking to a friend about this. Sometimes waiting happens because of a misunderstanding, but normally it’s because one of two participates isn’t interested.

I am reminded of one of my favorite movies, “He’s just not that into you” and the advice Alex gives Gigi, “Trust me when I say if a guy is treating you like he doesn’t [care], he genuinely doesn’t [care]. No exceptions.” And one of the first lessons taught in the movie that “If a guy doesn’t call you, he doesn’t want to call you.”

I’ve been there. Waiting for a boy to call is the worst. I hate it! Mostly because with my experience they don’t call.. ever! I don’t get it either. Why on earth bother to ask for my number if you had no intention of using it?

Another thing Alex tells Gigi is that if a guy wants to be with a girl, he will make it happen, and told her once he called every girl with the name of a girl he liked in the phone book till he found the right one. A few months ago I actually had a boy call me that I didn’t give my number to. It was awesome! I was so impressed, and quite shocked, that the boys I did give my number to never called me, but this one who I didn’t.. did. :)

Unfortunately, that didn’t work out, as you can tell. I’m still single. It was as if he was playing with one of those flowers, you know? “I like her, I like her not, I like her, I like her not..” I couldn’t stand the mix signals or this silly waiting game he was playing so I took that flower (metaphorically) and smashed it to the ground and moved on to a different boy interests. Who ended up not liking me either. No big surprise there.

Oh well. That’s how this dating game works. For me anyways. It’s never a two way street. Either the boy likes me or I like him. Never is it that we like each other. I try to give the guys that like me a shot, but for one reason or another it doesn’t work out. Perhaps I’m meant to be forever single. *Shrug*

Sincerely,
Sarah

Five Opportunities of YSA

A talk was given yesterday in my YSA (Young Single Adult) ward that I really enjoyed by one of my new friends Cristi. She is amazing. :) She is getting married this weekend. Yay. :) (She’s 28. Honestly, I love it when girls older than me get married. It makes me feel like there’s still hope for me. LOL.)

In her talk she passed down some of her wisdom. What she has discovered in the last 10 years of attending the YSA wards- what our opportunities in being part of a YSA ward. She made a list of five things.

1. The Opportunity of Callings
We have such an amazing opportunity of having callings in the church. To teaching, to serving on a committee, to ward missionary, and of course leadership positions. It’s a great opportunity to have a calling that will prepare us for future callings. :)

2. The Opportunity of Learning
We learn as we take part of our callings, as well as when we participate in our classes. We have an amazing opportunity to learn from one another.

3. The Opportunity to Date
Uh oh. The dreaded “D” word. lol. Contrary to popular believe, the YSA ward’s main purpose is not to date and get married. It’s just a “Perk” ;) An opportunity.

4. The Opportunity to be a Friend
We have an amazing opportunity in a YSA ward to meet others around our same age. To make friends. :) This is true. I’ve made lots of new friends since I started attending the YSA ward. :)

5. The Opportunity of the time you have now.
Which summaries everything. The time we have to enjoy the single life. In discovering who we are- through our different church callings, learning from one another, making friends, and yes even dating. :)

So yeah. That’s the recap of the five great opportunities of the YSA ward. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Choices.

Last night I watched a Christmas movie on TV “Dear Santa” A part of the movie that stuck out to me was conversation the main character had with another not so main character. (lol) About how life is about making choices. And he pointed out that life is a gamble. Ever choice we make is a risk. Aka leap of faith. I realized I’m not a big risk taker. I’ve always been one to take the safe road. But like I said in one of my latest post, I need to make some big choices in my life. Mainly my education. I need to try if I am to succeed. To take leap of faith. I think I’ve found it, but I’m not sure. I plan to meet with a councilor up at the college to see if what I’m thinking is the right course. Wish me luck. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Pressure

Pressing down on me
Pressing down on you
No man asked for
Under Pressure!
(Queen)

Last night I was talking to my sister-in-law about the pressure I seem to be under in being single, aka menace to society. The pressure that is place on me to get married, and gave me advice not to worry about it, and not to settle. And also how there is more to life than getting married and having a family. I just need to figure out what my purpose is. hum… :/

-Sarah

Try you must, Succeed you will

This quoted is by Jedi Master Yoda from Star Wars. This week my wise friend Cathy quoted this to me, and I plan to make my new quote for life. I need to try if I wish to be successful. In everything I do. To farthing my education, to gaining a better social life. (like *cough* dating) I need to set goals, work toward them, and go forward with courage and faith. :)

Recently I read an article by President Monson found in the January 1987 Ensign titled “Meeting your Goliath” I came across the article as I was reading my Mom's journals. She talked about this article and I decided to read it myself. :)

President Monson advises us to examine our own lifes: “..might we look carefully at our own lives and judge our courage, or faith. Is there a Goliath in your life? .. Does he stand squarely between you and your desired happiness?”

I feel my Goliath has always been my shyness. Some days it feels like a curse. It’s been my new year’s resolution this year to “break” out my shell, and I feel I’ve made somewhat of a “crack” I still have a long way to go however. :/

It’s like my “heart and mind” post a while back. I find that I am hiding who I am behind my shyness. Why am I shy? Why am I so scared to let others see the real me? I think perhaps we all have this fear of letting others in on different levels or degrees.

President Monson continues, “Just as David went to the brook, well might we go to our source of supply- The Lord. What polished stones will you select to defeat the Goliath that is robbing you of your happiness by smoothing your opportunities? May I offer suggestions?”

lol! I love that last line. Of course you can! ;)
I now will tell you a summary of what these five stones are.

First Stone: COURAGE.
President Monson then talks about Laman and Lemuel going to get the plates and how they lacked courage, which took from them opportunity. Nephi was courageous however. ;) with a “I will GO and DO..” Attitude. :) (1 Nephi 3:7)

Second Stone: EFFORT
Mentally, Physically, and Spiritually. “Thurst in thy sickle with all thy might” was not just for missionaries. We all need to put forth effort in our lives to overcome our challenges/trials. Our Goliaths.

Third Stone: HUMILITY
One of my all-time favorite scriptures- D&C 112:10 “Be thou humble and the Lord thy God shall lead thee by the hand and give thee answers to thy prayers.” The Lord will give us aid, just like He did for David. :)

Forth Stone: PRAYER
We need Our Father’s help if we are to succeed. He wants to bless us. All we need to do is ask, and have faith/trust in Him. :)

Fifth Stone: LOVE OF DUTY
“Duty is not merely to do the thing we ought to do, but to do it when we should, whether we like it or not” ;) I like the definition. It’s not always easy doing the right thing. It can be very scary. However.. it is our duty. :)

“Armed with this selection of five polished stones to be propelled by the mighty sling of Faith, we need then but take the staff of Virtue to steady us, and we are ready to meet our Goliath, wherever, and however we find him.”

I loved this article and hope now I am now better prepared to face my Goliath that tells me I am not good enough to go away for good. ;) With the Lords help I know I can do it.

Try I must, Succeed I will. ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah


http://lds.org/ensign/1987/01/meeting-your-goliath?lang=eng&query=goliath+(name%3a

From the Beginning.

Life is good. I can’t express how much joy I am finding in reading my Mother’s journals. I’m not only getting to know her better, but my Father as well. It’s been really fun reading about my early early childhood, and hearing her tell me how well he took such great care of us. I am also realizing how he still does. :) At times I feel he knows me better than I know myself, and now I understand why. He’s been there for me from the very beginning. :) Those early childhood years that I don’t remember, well he does. :)

It also makes me see another perspective, an eternal one. One I gained in reading “The Brothers” the first book in the Great and Terrible series about the premortal life. I’ve said on many occasions, but I truly know that my Heavenly Father knows me better than I know myself, and it’s because He has always been there. He’s been there since the beginning. Just like my early childhood, I don’t remember what the life before this one was like. But He remembers. He remembers me and my potential.

Just like my Earthy Father, my Heavenly Father is still with me, taking care of me. I just need to trust in him. He knows me, and He loves me. :) That’s another lesson I’ve learned from my Mom recently. “The Lord loves me. He needs me. He wants me.” :)

I love love love the gospel and the wonderful truth, and joy it gives me. :)

Love,
Sarah

Boys..

I was sitting today at lunch in the lunch room were some of my fellow male co-workers were talking about sports while watching the sports channel. It was like they were speaking a foreign language. I’m sure that’s how they feel when I talk about Dancing with the Stars. (btw the results were on tonight, the finale and JR won! Woot woot! :D)

Ya know.. boys can be SO funny, especially when it comes to their toys. (aka cars, trucks, motorcycles, computers, video games, sports, etc etc.) They sure make me laugh, and sometimes they make me cry.

Boys.. Can’t live with them.. can’t live without them.

-Sarah

Charity

I feel I learned a lot today from my good friend Cathy about Charity. Loving someone as our Heavenly Father does. I texted her this morning about a stupid boy (who is just a friend by the way,) and she shared with me some really great advice. Show me some perspective. I really needed that. Helped me not be so mad, and more understanding. It’s okay to be upset and disappointed in someone’s actions, but it doesn’t call for hate. It’s okay to love the person, and hate the sin. People do stupid things, but everyone needs a friend. Encouragement goes a lot farther then criticizing and judging someone for doing something stupid and wrong. After all it’s not our place to judge. It’s our place to love, like Christ loves and follow His example. It’s not always easy, but it is possible. Thank you Cathy. You are awesome. :)

Love,
Sarah

Top 10..

Reasons why The Hunger Games is Better than Twilight

I’ve read both series, and it’s easy to see that The Hunger Games is way better than the Twilight Saga. This list was put together by me with help from my friends Cathy, and Laura. :)


10. I find Twilight to be boring and a highly predicable read. The Hunger Games on the other hand I had a hard time putting down. It kept me on the edge of my seat the whole way through.

9. The Hunger Game books are brilliant. They made me laugh, they made me cry.. they moved me.

8. Katniss is willing to sacrifice her life for her sister, while Bella is just plain selfish.

7. Katniss isn’t a whiney, clingy, ridiculous girl.

6. Edward’s chivalry and hotness are the only things he has going for him. Too bad his hotness didn’t translate into the movies.

5. Gale, while he doesn’t get the girl, doesn’t rob the cradle.

4. I love Peeta! He’s such a sweetheart, while Edward is just plain creepy. Team Peeta all the way! ;)

3. Peeta and Katniss are a team, while Edward and Bella are just lust driven freaks.

2. Bella is a damsel in distress always needing saving, while Katniss on the other hand can fight her own battles. You Go Girl!

1. I can read The Hunger Games series over and over and never get bored. The upcoming movie in March looks like it will do it justice. :) I’m so soaked!! :D :D

I love love love The Hunger Games!!! :)

Companions

I’ve never been married, but I have had mission companions. I feel I learned a lot about companionship and what to look for in a future companion, and also what sort of companion I want to be when the time comes when I do become someone’s eternal companion. :)

There was once a time I actually wrote home to my Dad one week complaining about one of them. My Dad gave me some words of comfort.. that my eternal companion I’ll be able to choose for myself, and I won’t be with him 24/7.. but I’ll want to be. ;) lol.

I love all my hermanas very much. I feel that they are some of my dearest closest friends. :)

Love,
Sarah

Alone

Ya know.. the worst thing about being single, and *supposedly* independent is being alone. Who wants to face this world alone? It stinks. Sure I have my family, and my friends, but I don't have that one person to share my life with.

I know I am probably overly obsessed with getting married, and worry about it way too much; it’s pretty pathetic at times.

I know marriage won't be easy. I imagine it will be a lot like the mission in a way, of having a constant companion, course not to the extreme of 24/7, lol.

I'm sure there will be challenges. such as budgeting. I'm not sure what it all includes, all I know is that I want it. lol. I imagine it will be a lot better than the single life. I mean.. it has to be right?

-Sarah

His Everything

“Without God I am nothing, but because I am a daughter of God I am everything.” -Mom

As some of you know, I’ve recently had the opportunity to start reading my Mother’s journals. Last night as I was reading this sentence stuck out to me. I found it to be very profoundly beautiful. :)

It reminds me of President Uchtdorf’s talk this last General Conference, “You Matter to Him” How even though compared to all the big space of the universe we seem to be nothing, because we are the children of God, we are everything. He loves us, and to him we are His everything. :)

http://lds.org/general-conference/2011/10/you-matter-to-him?lang=eng

Love,
Sarah

Chivalry

Today at my ward’s activity I got there the same time as this boy. He’s one of those “fishes” I’ve noticed and was excited to perhaps get to know him better. He didn’t even open the door for me like I was expecting. What is up with that? If you remember my bad date dream from my Ryan Scale post, failing to open the door was the first downward spiral of bad moves. :/ What is our world coming too where boys don’t open girl's doors? Where are all the gentlemen? Are the rumors true? Is chivalry really dead? That is so depressing. :/

Sincerely,
Sarah

Interesting Date Experience..

Alright! Do I have a funny story for you. I promised you dating stories and here is one from last year. October of 2010. It’s a good one. A LOL for sure. ;)

So, this was a blind date. One of my friends asked me one day if I was dating anyone. Why? Well she knew of a really nice guy she like to set me up with. okay. what they hey. I haven’t had one of those for a while. They always make for a good story, and trust me this one defiantly does. ;)

So I gave her my number as requested and she told me she pass it along. Few days later I talked to her again. (via facebook chat) I told her he hadn’t called yet, and wonder if she had indeed passed my number along. She told me she get him on it right then and there. Whoa. okay. and sure enough a few minutes later my phone rang.. it was.. get this.. His Mother! That’s right! His mother called and asked me out to dinner. I wasn’t prepared for that and wasn’t sure how to respond. She said he asked her to call on his behave. Alright.


Maybe he is really shy. Being shy myself I understand (some what) his predicament. I remember thinking it was one of two things.. 1. He really was too chicken to call me himself, or 2. He had no interest in meeting me and it was all his mother’s doing. like she told him to call me, and his response was “No. You call her.” and wasn’t really expecting her to. Hum. Or perhaps, like one of my friends told me when I told her, that it was secret option number 3. He had no idea about his mother’s set up and was actually a really cool guy. ;)

Anyways, the night of the date I was running late at work and I so I decided to call and let them know. (common courtesy and all) It was pretty awkward situation. who do I ask for? Him or his mother? I called and asked for both. The person on the phone was laughing pretty hysterically and mimicking me while handing the phone over to my date. lol! serves him right for not calling me himself. I thought at the time it was perhaps a brother, however I learned later it was his father. (I find that to be more funny actually) He was super nice on the phone. Totally understanding. :)


Dinner ended up being really good. Food tasted great. homemade after all. So Yeah. It was pretty awkward. I mean.. how many first dates (blind date too for that matter) are there that are double with parents? Yeah.. There’s a reason they aren’t that common. It was actually better than I was expecting. They are very nice people. After dinner his father left. Had somewhere to be. (my guess is that it was too weird for him. lol.) Then the three of us went and talked in the other room. It was.. okay.. it was an interesting experience. Never had a “chaperon” date before. I won’t recommend them.

After the date I concluded it was option #2. He sarcastically told his mother to call me, and she didn’t catch the sarcasm.. just my guess. I never heard from him again, which is okay by me.

Moral of the story: blind dates make for some really funny stories. Trust me I have more. ;) and also.. when I mother ask you out.. say No. Chances are it’s her idea, not his. And even if it is his idea.. a moma’s boy isn’t the way to go. Wish someone would have told me that before. Oh well. The experience still makes me laugh and I hope it made you laugh too. ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Pretty girl like you?

I was asked a while back if I was married. By an older guy. He was shocked when I told him No. “Really? A pretty girl like you?” I figure he was trying to be nice, but it was more like rubbing it in my face the fact that I’m still single. *Thanks* (not)

Later that same week another older guy asked me if I was married. I remember thinking.. here we go again. Just rub it in will yah? but he actually responded in another way. He asked me if he could call me sometime. I respond real fast “NO.” before you get upset let me explain! This man is older than my father. That’s just gross. I may be pretty.. but I’m not desperate.

Sincerely,
Sarah

The Climb

I can almost see it..
That dream I’m dreaming..
But there’s a voice inside my head sayin’..
“You’ll never reach it.”

Every step I’m takin’,
Every move I makes feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shakin’..

But I.. I gotta kept tryin’
Gotta keep my head held high,

There’s always goin’ be another mountain..
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up hill battle..
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side..
It’s the Climb.

The struggles I’m facing..
The chances I’m takin’..
Sometimes might knock me down.
But no, I’m not breakin’.

I may not know it..
But these are moments,
That I’m gonna remember most (yeah)
Just gotta kept goin’

And I.. I gotta to be Strong,
Just keep pushin’ on..


Caz..
There’s always goin’ be another mountain..
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up hill battle..
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side..
It’s the Climb.

[song lyrics: The Climb. By Miley Cyrus.]

I love this song. It teaches me a good lesson. That life.. it’s a climb. It’s not easy. It’s not about how fast I “get there” or what’s on the other side. It’s about the journey.. the climb. :)

Love,
Sarah

Only One?

Henry: "Do you really think there is only one perfect mate?”
Da Vinci: “As a matter of fact, I do.”
Henry: “Well then how can you be certain to find them? And if you do find them, are they really the one for you or do you only think they are? And what happens if the person you're supposed to be with never appears, or, or she does, but you're too distracted to notice?”
Da Vinci: “You learn to pay attention.”
Henry: “Then let's say God puts two people on Earth and they are lucky enough to find one another. But one of them gets hit by lightning. Well then what? Is that it? Or, perchance, you meet someone new and marry all over again. Is that the lady you're supposed to be with or was it the first? And if so, when the two of them were walking side by side were they both the one for you and you just happened to meet the first one first or, was the second one supposed to be first? And is everything just chance or are some things meant to be?”

[Quoted from the movie Ever After]

I disagree with Mr Da Vinci. I don’t believe there is only one person for each of us. I am remind of the square analogy that was explain to my once. Where the borders/ lines of the square represent qualities and characteristics of wants in a future companion. Things I won’t be able to live without. :) and then inside the box are where all the “fishes” are. aka The eligible bachelors. ;)
So.. Destiny? Fate? I’m not sure I believe in it. I also don’t believe in coincidences. One thing I do believe in is my Heavenly Father. :) (Refer to my Time Table of the Lord post)

Love,
Sarah

Fishes

You know the saying that your friends tell you when a guy you like doesn’t like you back? The one about the fishes, and how there are more fish out there in the sea? Sometimes I really hate it when they say that. Like.. sure there are, but I don’t really believe it, and if there are I don’t care caz I wanted that one fish! I realized though these last few days.. There really are a lot of fish. It helps that I attended a singles ward full of them. lol. I’m finding myself a little over whelmed by it all. Why didn’t I realize this before? Oh that’s right, caz I was distracted by one fish who was blocking my view from all the rest. Now all I need to do is sort through all these fishes. Eliminate the ones that are taken of course, the ones that are too young, the ones out of my league and then the ones that jerks. I need to swim a little deeper to find the fish best for me I think. Hum. Perhaps I’ll just wait for him to find me. After all.. I can’t swim. lol.

-Sarah

Eye Contact

I’m told Eye Contact is pretty powerful stuff. Not that I disagree, it’s just I’m really bad at it. Honestly, a shy girl like me.. it freaks me out. It’s like they are looking into my very soul. I suppose it goes back to my “heart and mind” post I made last week. It’s scary letting someone in, especially a boy. Caz once I let him in.. it means that he could hurt me. :/ But also like that song says.. if I don’t ever let anyone one in.. how am I suppose to feel alive? I think this is something to add to my baseball analogy, at the beginning when I’m up at bat. I’ve been advised by my friend Bre that if I “eye” this guy down.. and he sees it, he’ll know that I’m interested and the rest is history. Is it really that easy? She’s not sure if it works every time, but it did worked for her this last time around. ;) I have been told my eyes are beautiful. The men in Spain loved my blue eyes. It was actually kinda creepy. Hum.. I’ll have to give it a shot. See if I can master this stare down without being too creepy. Wish me luck!

-Sarah

STB

STB: Sarah’s Twin Brother.

That’s right. I’m a twin. :) It’s funny how many people ask me if I like being a twin. I was born a twin, it’s hard to say when I’ve never known other wise. lol. But really.. it’s a lot of fun. It’s like I was born with a best friend. :)

We aren’t identically (People ask that question a lot too. lol.) so we can’t do the whole switcharoo thing, but having a boy as a twin does have it’s perks. Sure it get annoying sometimes when people who don't know us think we are dating, but when the freaks are around I don't correct them.

He even filled in on a date for me once. My friends set up a group date and found a blind date for me, and unfortunately something came up so he cancelled on us. My friends insisted I still go, so I got my brother to help fill in as an extra wheel with me.

There was even a time here at my work where a old guy (okay maybe not that old.. like 40? Still.. too old for me) attempted to asking me out. I knew what he was up to. He started by asking me if I like movies. Yes. Do you have a certain someone to go to those movies with? Yes. Oh. Okay. And that was it. :) I told my supervisor after and she asked me if I told him that certain someone was my brother. No. Course not. He didn’t ask specifics, so I didn’t give any. ;)

So yeah.. STB (as some of my friends called him after meeting him and he thought it’d be funny not to tell them his name) is super great. I like him lots, and I plan to keep him. ;)

Love,
TTS

Happiness

“We tend to forget that happiness doesn’t come as a result of getting something we don’t have, but rather recognizing and appreciating what we do have.” –Unknown

I have to remind myself of this often. Just because my dreams of being a wife and mother haven’t happen yet, doesn’t mean they won’t. My Dad told me last week that he thinks I am worrying to much about finding my prince. Which is probably true, most days. lol.

I am so blessed with the wonderful blessing I do have. I just tend to forget about them and that is what makes me unhappy, just like this quote teaches us.

I am so very blessed in many ways. Just to list a few of them..
My Family, My Friends, My Job, My Car, Roof over my head, Good Books, Movies, Technology, and of course the Gospel. :)

I am so blessed to be a part of the true church of our Heavenly Father. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. :) I love this wonderful gospel with all my heart. I know my Heavenly Father lives and that He loves me. That Jesus is the Christ, that through Him I will be able to return back home, and be with my sweet Mother again for all eternity. :) I love the gospel with my heart.

Sincerely,
Sarah

Time Table of the Lord

Elder Richard G. Scott counseled: “If you are single and haven’t identified a solid prospect for celestial marriage, live for it. Pray for it. Expect it in the timetable of the Lord. Do not compromise your standards in any way that would rule out that blessing on this or the other side of the veil. The Lord knows the intent of your heart. His prophets have stated that you will have that blessing as you consistently live to qualify for it. We do not know whether it will be on this or the other side of the veil. But live for it. Pray for it.”

I keep this quote tucked away in my scriptures and read it often. Just recently I received the similar advice from my Mother in one of her old journals. I had no idea she used to have the same fear I face today, and knew that one day I would need her advice on the matter.

“I used to be afraid I’d never get married. Even though I knew someday I would, I was afraid no one would ever love me in a marrying kind of way. I just couldn’t imagine my dreams all coming true. But I kept reminding myself that ‘Heavenly Father loves me and wants me to be a happy- so when the time is right, I’ll be married.’ I remember the summer of ’76, pleading with the Lord to please let me find my Mr Right. I wanted SO much to be loved and to love. I wanted to be married! But I had to find patience and develop faith in my Father and trust his judgment. Now, everything has worked out very well. Two years later I was married to my wonderful husband.”

Her words bring me comfort and hope. I know that my Heavenly Father loves me, and wants me to be happy- so when the time is right, I’ll be married. :)

Love,
Sarah

Throw up my Heart

My sixteen year old cousin actually came up with this saying. She was telling me about this boy she has a crush on and how when she sees him she feels like she’s going to throw up her heart. Cause that’s how she felt. A butterfly sick feeling that makes her heart jump up through her throat. I thought it was a cute description. :) Crushes.. that’s how it starts. LOL.

Ah to be in Love. I’ve never actually been in love. Not really. I guess it’s a feeling that you are willing to do anything for that person. Even die for them. When two people are in love they inspire one another to be better. They support and encourage one another. They trust each other and have no secrets. It’s sacrificing one’s own happiness so that the other person may be happy. :) That’s just my guess anyways. But what do I know? I’ve never been in love. Perhaps I just read too many romance novels and watch too many chick flicks. lol.

Love,
Sarah

An Elect Lady

Today at Institute we were in D&C 25. Which is directed to Emma Smith. The Lord tells Emma how she is an elect lady. So in class we made up a list of what characteristics an Elect Lady has, and what we can do to become Elect Ladies (or gentlemen for the guys)

First, she knows she is a daughter of God. :) She harkens to His voice. She is faithful, full of virtue, patient, and humble. She is Meek which we discussed meant gentleness. As well as power under control. She doesn’t murmur or complain or participate in gossip. She is a comfort and support to her husband as well as his equal partner. She is worthy to be in tune with the spirit. She is a Mother, the back bone to the family. She is the teacher in her home. She is educated- always learning. She has a song/ prayer in her heart. She has her priorities strait, and cleaves unto the covenants she made in the temple. She is full of delight and joy. :)

My Goal.. to become an Elect Lady. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Lonely

So.. I’ve had a problem the last few weeks. They guy I’ve been crushing on, one of my friends has too. I didn’t tell her how I felt till today. She is such a super great friend and told me if I wanted to date him I should. I’m not so sure I want to anymore. He seems to be really into her. When I first saw them together.. I thought I was jealous. I mean.. in my head I was, because that seem like the logical thing to feel. However, when it think about it.. I’m not jealous. Not in my heart I’m not. In my heart.. I just feel lonely.

-Sarah

A Shoe

Today I was talking to a friend of mine about a date she had over the weekend. She can’t tell if this boy likes her or not and he’s being very confusing. Puh. Typical boy. And they think we are the confusing complicating ones. I beg to differ. Anyways, as she was telling me about his actions, we concluded he hasn’t decided if he likes her or not. I was reminded of an analogy that was given yesterday’s dating discussion. Which was about comparing shoe shopping, trying on shoes- to casual dating. Trying to find the right fit. Of course being the Friends fan that I am I couldn’t help but think of the pilot episode where Rachel is talking to her Dad on the phone. “It’s like.. all my life I’m been told I’m a shoe. You’re a shoe you’re a shoe you’re a shoe. And one day I woke up and decided what if I don’t wanna be shoe anymore. What if I want to be a purse, or a hat.. no I don’t want a hat! I'm saying I am a hat. It’s a metaphor Daddy!” LOL. :) ah Friends. Love it. Anyways. Today’s lesson, Casual dating is like shoe shopping. And one day, just like Cinderella, I’ll find my perfect fit. ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Up To Bat

Today at church for our combined fifth sunday lesson we talked about dating. lol. so typical in the singles ward. Anyways, I decided to stay after for the mingle for a bit so that I can attempted to practice a little bit of what was taught. Actually talking to boys. which in my baseball dating analogy I shared in an earlier post with you all is at bat, attempting to swing the bat. I was able to talk to a few boys. :) I know it may sound lame to some of you, but I am proud of myself. For stepping out of my comfort zone and going off on my own to actually have a conversation with a boy. :) I don't know if I'll make it to first base, but at least I wasn't hit in the face by the ball. metaphorically speaking of course. ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Man like Captain Moroni

This past General Conference Sister Dalton gave an amazing talk directed to Fathers. In every talk I tried my best to seek for a way to apply it to my own life.

I really like the part of her talk where she talked about Captain Moroni and the characteristics he possessed.
“[He] was a strong and mighty man;.. he was a man of a perfect understanding;.. a man whose heart did swell with thanksgiving to his God,.. a man who was firm in the faith of Christ..

“.. if all men had been, and were, and ever would be, like unto Moroni, behold, the very powers of hell would have been shaken forever, yea, the devil would never have power over the hearts of the children of men.” (Alma 48:11-13, & 17)

In hearing her talk I was remind of my own father. She told the fathers that they are their daughter’s hero. I am very blessed to be able to have a father that is my hero. :) I know of some of my friends that can’t say that.

Also in hearing Sister Dalton’s talk I thought of my future husband, the father of my future children. What I can look for in finding who he is.. what main characteristics I can look for. The same ones Captain Moroni had. The same ones I can see in my own Father. :)

I don’t know why, but I’ve been concern lately that I won’t recognize him (whoever he may be) when “he comes out of nowhere and into my life” (as Michael Buble puts it) but as I mention in the Ryan Scale post about the experience I had in institute recently, I will recognize him “..by [his] desires and [his] works [I] shall know [him]” (D&C 18:38) :)

One day.. My Prince will come. :) One day..

Sincerely,
Sarah

Heart and Mind

I write you letters from right to left/ See if you have desire yet/ To decipher what I said/ And learn secrets from my head

It was hard for me to say/ Those three words that are so brave/ Almost kept them locked away/ Deep inside where they'd be safe

Always trying to find/A safer place to hide
Always felt I was protecting my/Heart and mind/But it seems like to really feel alive /I cannot hide /My heart and mind

I don't know why I get shy /Tucked away inside my mind/ Scared to let someone inside /I sit silent in disguise

Always trying to find/ A safer place to hide
Always felt I was protecting my/ Heart and mind/ But it seems like/ to really feel alive /I cannot hide my heart and mind

One day I found a strength inside me/Just by finally realizing/There is a truth that is inside/That I really cannot hide/My heart and mind

(Song Lyrics: Heart and Mind by Kina Grannis)

This song describes me. I find myself sending clues/hints to boys I like, but the reality is they don’t get hints. No matter how obvious they are. And it is so hard to say those three words: I like you. and one day when those feeling grow: I love you. I’ve always kept them hidden away. Never actually said them. why not? well like Kina said, I think I am protecting my heart and mind. I am shy, and I really don’t know why. At times it feels like a curse. I’m just.. scared to let anyone inside. Afraid of getting hurt. Of falling a great height and crashing. Afraid to fall because honestly I don’t believe there is anyone there to catch me. So I hid my feelings inside. I sit silently in disguise. Always feeling that I am protecting my heart and mind. One day.. I hope.. that I’ll be able to come out of hiding. That I will find that guy that will make me feel like I can fly.

Love,
Sarah

Boyfriend

I have boyfriend. At least, that’s what I’ve been told. His name is Camden and he is four. He’s been going around bragging to everyone that he knows that I am his girlfriend and I am totally okay by that. He is SO adorable! Sure it’s nothing serious, that would be illegal! But it’s nice to know that someone loves me and wants me for their girlfriend. Even if he is only four years old. ;)

Love,
Sarah

Second To None

A couple summers ago, when I was still attending the family ward I was made Young Women's camp director. (I know, hilarious.) It ended up being a really neat experience. I was the one who had to come up with a theme. It was fun to brainstorm a lot of ideas, however, I kept coming back to the same thing. Princesses. With the help of my two camp assistants we came to a conclusion of what our theme title should be, which was: "Finding the Princess within."
A lot of times we fail to remember our Individual worth and Divine Nature. We are all Children of God. One of my all time favorite quotes for that summer, that is actually by President Hinckley goes: "Remember who you are. You are Second to none. You are a daughter of God" :)

-Sarah

Being Ready

Sometimes I get disgusted and bitter when I find out girls younger than me are getting married. it's not fair! but the truth is.. all of us are different. when I think about it.. I wasn't ready when I was 20 to get married. Come to think of it.. I'm not even sure I'm ready now to get married. LOL. There is so much I have learned in the last five years. Things I would have missed out on if I was married. The main thing was serving a mission for the Church. I would have missed out on so much. It was the hardest thing I've ever done, but also the most rewarding. I learned so much. There is so much more to life than just being married and having kids. One day I’ll get there, but in the meantime.. I’m going to take advantage of the time I have being single. Discovering who I am, and all that fun jazz. :)

-Sarah

FALL.

I'm afraid to begin,
For what the end will bring.
Am I ready to fall?
It seems so far, I could get hurt.
In the end will it be worth it?

Should I give you a try?
You and I could be..
I can see it in my dreams.
Will you fall along with me?

I can see it in my dreams.
You and I could be!
Should I give you a try?
In the end will it be worth it?
It seems so far, I could get hurt.
Am I ready to fall?

For what the end may bring..
I'm afraid to begin.

(Poem by meat age 17)
-Sarah

Do over

Do you ever wish you had a “Do Over” button? For those times you missed an opportunity to talk to a really cute boy?

I needed one of those tonight. He said “Hi” to me and I waved and then went on my way. I wasn’t planning on seeing him and it threw me off. I couldn’t think how to react until after it happen.

Alright. I thought about it now and I could have performed better.

I’m ready now. “Do Over”

If only it were that easy.

Bling Dates

I’ve had a lot of blind dates in my life. And I mean A LOT. Because I’m a shy person it’s hard for me to do this dating game on my own. So blind dates are what I usually get when it comes to dating. In my baseball analogy, blind dates are like receiving a “ball” no swing necessary. Just a free pass to first base- first date. :)

Don’t get me wrong. Blind dates can be great. I have some good stories, and some not so good stories to share about them. lol. ;)

Over all though, I believe in them. After all, that’s how my Dad meet my stepmom. As well as my two brothers meeting their wives. So I believe they work. Did all you catch that? I hope so caz I need your help if I’m ever going to get married. ;) I’m only partly kidding.

-Sarah

The Ryan Scale

Okay, So my last post I told you all about my ideal date. Now I’ll tell you about a not so Ideal date. True story too. Sort of. It’s a dream I had.

But, before I tell you about the dream I'm going to give you some real life back ground. One day my good friend Cathy and I were traveling on the bus together. I look over and see the most gorgeous man I think I've ever seen in my entire life! When we got off the bus she turn to me and asked me if I'd seen him. Heck yes I did! We were totally checking out the same man. How funny is that? For the next few hours we couldn’t help but keep talking about him, and playing a game of a sort of coming up with a name for him. We finally settled on the name Ryan. Since then it's been an inside joke of ours. Whenever we tell each other about a boy we like and admire, or have a date with, we ask each other where he is on the Ryan scale. LOL. One day we were IMing on facebook, when Harry Potter was coming out and I look over and see Voldemort. EK!! Defiantly a zero on the Ryan scale. :/ so that is the back ground of how the Ryan scale came to be. Ryan a Ten. Voldemort a Zero.

Now onto my dream..

So this dream date of mine. It started with my friend Liz coming over with a boy for me. She was hinting to both of us that she was setting us up. He was a total fox! aka Ryan! ;) So course I was interested! So we went out on a date. ;)

It was.. an interesting date. Not really what I was expecting. It started off with small little errors. For example he forgot to open my door. Okay, I suppose I could let that slide. Next he took me to a horrible restaurant. Okay. I guess food is food. We had really weird awkward silences and he asked the strangest questions. (huh?) And he made fun of me! (Excuse me jerkface?) As he was losing "points" he was going down on the Ryan scale major- getting uglier and uglier with each jerk action. Oh it doesn’t end there! Next he forgot his wallet and couldn't pay for the meal and strangely enough I forgot mine too. We ended up having to wash dishes to pay for out meal! And lastly he didn't even bother walking me to the door! Total curp side drop off! In the end he became as ugly as Lord Voldemort, no nose and all. :/

What a strange dream right? It was nightmare! I'm glad it was only a dream. Could you imagine if it wasn't? That would have been so awful! I told my friend Cathy my dream and she thought that it was awesome.. even though it wasn't.. LOL

I suppose in thinking about this, it would be pretty awesome to be able to tell a man’s character by the way he looked.

A while back I had really cool revelation experience. As I was at institute with my friends and feeling super stupid for falling for another player type boy (I’ll get more into talking about players in a future post) A scripture from the page we were on popped out at me. D&C 18:38. “And by their desire and their works you shall know them.” And was reminded of this dream I had. :) I thought it was really cool how that happen. It was a nice little reminder that I can tell from a man’s desires and works who he is inside. His inner beauty, or is inner ugliness. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

My Ideal Date

I was asked a while ago in a twenty question game I was playing with my friend Angela what my ideal date would be. Activity wise. I thought about it, for like a second. It wasn’t that hard to come up with really. lol.
My ideal date, and here’s the secret to all those boys out there who are internet stocking me- LOL As if they exist, but please friends just humor me for a bit and please don’t ruin it by saying he’ s a creepo stalker alright?
Okay.. where was I?
Oh yes.
The secret to my ideal date. ;)
It’s actually really simple.
It’s.. anything related to dancing.
Be it going to a dance concert of some type, for example a ballet, a play, or even better going dancing! :) It could even be just playing “Just Dance” on the Wii (I LOVE that game!)
Oh Yeah! :D
Even something as simple as dancing in the middle of the street with no music like in the movie the Notebook. You don’t even have to know how to dance! Or be good at it! It just has to include dancing. That’s all I request. :)
Pretty simple really.
Haha! I was just reminded of a funny story. One time.. I was ‘tricked’ on going on a date.
For real!
I was invited by a guy friend of mine to go dancing. I thought he said it was a group thing, or maybe I just assumed (?) either way, it ended up being the two of us. I remember texting my friends when I realized it was just the two of us and saying, “I’ve been tricked! I think I’m on a date with Matt*!” He was a nice kid don’t get me wrong.. he’s just.. I don’t know how to describe it. Just friends material. Anyways, the point is, I’m a sucker for dancing. I love to dance. I’m not a professional or anything of the sort, I just.. enjoy it. It’s one thing that I can’t help but smile when I see it, and/ or when I attempted it. :) It’s just over all super duper fun. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

*Name has been changed.

Place in My Heart

Today is my Mother’s birthday. She is.. my Angel. :) She passed away my sophomore year of high school. I miss her very much, and at times wish she was here to help me out with all these boy problems.

Those first few years were really hard for me. I got really angry with God for taking her away from me. I was only sixteen and just entering the dating world. A territory I did not know. There have been many times since she’s been gone that I’ve desperately wanted her here, to the point that I would cry myself to sleep because I needed her... I needed her here beside me to help me in life and in understanding why boys were so stupid.

I have been extremely blessed to have my Mom’s sister, my dear Aunt Toni always there to talk to about this strange dating game we play. She’s always been there to help comfort me when my heart has been broken, and in finding hope in the future, as well as just being a listening ear for those times when I need to vent my feelings. She is truly one of my dearest closes friends and I would be so lost without her in my life. I love her very much. :)

I was told once by a bishop in my youth to be aware of the hole that was left in my heart from losing my Mom at such a young age, a hole that left me vulnerable to the world. He told me I needed to be careful not to fall in love so easily. Perhaps that is one reason why I haven’t been able to truly open my heart to boy. That warning has honestly frightened me so much that I don’t let anyone in at all. It is as if I have a wall up and I can’t for the life of me bring it down. That fear of getting hurt.. of falling and not being able to get back up again.. It’s terrifying. :(

However, I realize today, that place in my heart will never be filled. It will always belong to my Mother. My Angel. :) She has always and will always be a part of me. She is the main reason I am the person I am today.

Happy Birthday Mom! :) I love you, and miss you always. You will always have a place in my heart. <3

With much Love
Your daughter,
Sarah

Baseball Dating for Mormons

So.. this baseball analogy came to be because of a dream I had. I was on a date with this super cute guy and we held hands.

It was a lovely dream. :)

I told my friend Julee about it the next day and she said “Ooo. Holding hands? Is that like second base?” and that is how this whole analogy came to be. :) In thinking about this dating game compared to baseball, Julee and I came up with what each “base” of the dating process is.

I’m Mormon after all, so I date in a different way than what the rest of the world would. Ya see.. in this dating analogy to baseball how the world has it.. well it’s not appropriate for us Mormons and the wonderful law of chastity we believe in. :)

So According my friend Julee and me, we decided that up at bat is the first step at attempting to playing this dating game of baseball. Which we decided symbolizes in this analogy is the act of actually talking to the boy. You may hit some strikes, or even some foul balls, but eventually with practice you'll hit a ball, and make it to first base. ;)

First base meaning.. first date. ;) Which can be quite the accomplishment. The run to second base is getting that second, third, fourth.. etc etc. you get the point- multiple dates. Which we can also refer it to casual dating. :)

Now on to second base. Julee was right about it being holding hands, because holding hands symbolizes commitment.. and that we would classify as being steady dating. aka boyfriend/girlfriend. ;)

Third base of this little baseball dating analogy for Mormons is being the Engagement part of the relationship. Some of you may think that Engagement should be home plate, but unfortunately for some couples they get stopped by the short stop and call of the engagement for one reason or another.

Then last, but certainly not least, Home Plate.. Which is of course our Happily Ever After. :) Marriage in our Castle- The Lord’s Temple. Where we are seal together for Time and all eternity. :) Awe.

Pretty simple right? Wrong. LOL. Maybe it is for some, but for me.. I am terrible at this game. Which is why I think some of the stories of my own adventures life of dating will be fun to share with you all in this new blog of mine. I hope you all enjoy.

Sincerely,
Sarah

What's a Date?

"I want to go on a date.” Gisele in the 2007 movie Enchanted tells her Prince Edward. He responds excitingly: “A date!” :D then pauses in confusion and ask.. “What's a date?”

I’ve been wondering this one myself lately. It’s been a really long time since I’ve had one of those, I’ve forgotten and feel like Prince Edward when he pauses in confusion.

What is a date?

The best description I could find was actually in this same film earlier, when Gisele’s new friend Robert tells Gisele that a date is going out some place special. Such as to a restaurant, movie, or even a museum. The list can go on and on. You go, hangout and you talk. You talk about each other. Your interests. You likes, and your dislikes. :) Sounds pretty simple right? :) If only.. lol.

So much to say, and not enough time to share it. Till next time..

Sarah

Menace to Society

As explained in the 2002 movie the “Single’s Ward” by the character Brother Niner when he said: “Let me reiterate what Brigham Young said: if you're 25 years old and unmarried, you're a menace to society. Just something for everybody to ponder”

Huh..

So.. According to that.. I am a Menace to Society. I’m not sure how I feel about that. Except, I was told once by my friend Cathy that this quote doesn’t revere to us girls. After all.. it’s the boys job to do the asking out and eventually the proposing when it gets to that stage of the relationship. Some of you may agree, some of you may not. Either way.. I am 25, and unmarried, which, according to this saying, I am a Menace to Society.

Dating
Agh. What a stupid game. Especially if you’re like me and have chungo (aka lame) boys playing. At this rate, I’m Forever Single.

Welcome to my new blog. Where I’ll be talking about mine and possible my friends dating experience, in hopes of entertaining my friends with laughter. :)

Enjoy,
Sarah