Blossoming

I recently received a really pretty flower necklace from my Aunt. I like it a lot. It reminds me of the flower on Mulan. I am reminded of her conversation with her father and him comparing her to a blossom flower. He makes the comment: “My, what beautiful blossoms we have this year. But look, this one is late. But I bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all” :)

This comment takes place after Mulan meets with the matchmakers and fails miserably. She is told that she will never marry. Which is how I’ve felt a lot this year. Being 25, and still single, aka a menace to society, at times I feel really hopeless. It’s hard when practically all my friends from High School are married.

I like Mulan. She’s so brave and courageous. So comparing myself to her.. well that’s fun. :) I want to be brave like her. I may be a late bloomer to some, but like Mulan’s father says, “I’ll bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all.” :)

So for my new year’s resolution, I’m going to work on blossoming into the flower Heavenly Father knows I can become. :)

Love,
Sarah

Ultimate Fantasy

“Love just doesn't happen to girls like me; girls who build their hopes on an intricate web of day dreams. The truth is that everyone has issues and maybe building up a fake, perfect man in my mind was my biggest issue of all. I've been walking around with the ghost of my magic man. He's been haunting me, keeping me from a world of opportunities that were right in front of me.
There's no such thing as perfection. Love is for people who are realistic and smart enough to open up their heart and minds and to realize that a real relationship is the ultimate fantasy."
-Lane from Beauty and the Briefcase

Now, I’m not as extreme as Hillary Duff’s character Lane in this movie “Beauty and the Briefcase” with her crazy list for her “magic man” but I do agree I need to be a bit more realistic. Maybe then I’ll actually find this Love that all these chick flicks talk about. lol- maybe.

Sincerely,
Sarah

Freddy the Frog

[I wrote this story based of the popular story “Princess and the Frog” when I was playing a story game with my friend Julee. We tell each other a random noun and challenge each other to tell a story. She told me to tell her a story about a frog, and this is what I came up with. Enjoy.]

Once upon a time there was this beautiful princess name Julee. One day she was about playing and she meet this frog name Freddy. He like her and wanted to be her friend. However secretly he wanted to be more than friends, but didn’t dare tell her that. He was scared if he told her that she would run away. So he thought if they started out friends she would grow to care for him in the same way he cared about her.

What he didn’t know, is that she had a hunch about his little crush. She didn’t tell him that because she wasn’t sure what she thought of him. Plus he only asked for friendship, so that’s what she was. A friend. He was nice frog, a good friend that she comes to care about, but she wasn’t sure if she could ever grow to like him in that way. She was grateful to be friends and hoped she would be able to make up her mind about how much she like him before he asked her to be more than friends. He was cute.. for a frog that is. but she didn’t want to marry a frog. She wanted to marry a prince. She was a nice girl, and was very good at looking past a person’s outside appearance and seeing the beauty within. Or in some causes the ugly within.

In her time growing to know the frog, she could tell he was really great friend, one she could talk to easily, and never once made her feel stupid. He actually made her feel the complete opposite! When she was with him she felt so special. So after a while of being friends, she decided to give him a chance. He finally got the courage to ask her out to the theater, as friends of course- he was worried if he called it a date she would freak out! They went and had a good time.

After a few weeks of going out and having fun doing all sort of fun activities, she grew to care for the frog and he grew to care for her even more than he had already did. One night after one of their outings, as he was leaving she told him to wait, and he stopped, paused waiting for what she had to say, and she kissed him! It was quite the pleasant surprise for him, and for her! Because after she kissed him, he magically turned into a prince! A very handsome prince at that! They were so happy and so in love that they decided to get married and lived happily ever after.

The end. :)

Attitude

Today I was talking to my Aunt who is unfortunately going through a divorce. She gave my brother and me some advice, about finding out who we are, learn to stand on our own, and be true to who we are. Also that happiness doesn’t come from another person.

“You can’t find happiness in another person, it’s already there within you. Sometimes we think others can make us happy but that happiness comes from within. Our own happiness can influence others to perhaps feel it inside themselves.” And then she shared a really neat quote that goes along with this: “Attitude is more influential than action. Attitude is a very powerful form of action. Faith is the most powerful form of attitude”

Which reminds me of another quote: “Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.” Our attitudes matter a lot in regards to our own personal happiness. We always have a choice on what attitude to have and how to react to another person’s attitude. We can choose to take offence when someone is in a bad mood and says something rude, or does something mean, OR we can try to understand where they are coming from. Try to see things from their point of view. Gain a new perspective. We can’t possible know exactly what a person is going through, or what they may be thinking, but we can at least try and understand where they are coming from.

So, the moral of this post.. Happiness won’t magically appear when I get married. It’s already there within me. I am for the most part a happy person. however there are those days when I am not so happy. It’s all about attitude and staying in control of it. I can choice to be happy by the way I act. A little thing.. that makes a big difference.

Sincerely,
Sarah

Cook Book

For Christmas today I received a cook book. I asked for one and Daddy provided. ;) “52 Weeks of Recipes” by Clark and Kathryn Kidd. A beginner cook book for nervous cooks- like me. Perfect. :) I’ve been wanted to try and be more adventurous with my cooking ability/ skills. There is just only so much pasta, frozen foods, box foods (you know, hamburger helper and mac and cheese) and fast food one can take. lol! So I’m super excited for my cooking adventure to go further. I thought it would be fun to read the introduction and man was I right! I laugh when I read- and I quote: “And when the time comes for you to think of finding the right person to marry, your prospective spouse will be a lot more impressed if you can put together a good meal than if you simply know the best place in town to get pizza.” LOL! SO very funny! I’ve been told that if I knew how to cook I’d probably be married by now. Bahaha! I just thought that was really funny. (I doubt that’s my only problem. haha) I mostly want to learn how to cook for survival reasons. Don’t you just hate it when you look in the fridge and/ or in the pantry and there’s nothing to eat? Really there is, I’m just sick of eating the same old stuff all the time. I need variety. One this new book of mine will help me gain. :) Yay for Christmas! Yay for Dads! Let the learning begin! ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Worst Things

There are worst things in life than being single. I’ve been told my stepmom that is better to be alone than with the wrong person. I defiantly don’t want to settle. Be with the wrong person- someone who won’t treat me right. My standers may be considered too high to some, but to me they are just right. I’m not looking for perfect, there’s no such thing. Some days the single blues hit hard and it feels like the end of the world, but then I have to remember.. there are worst things in life than being single. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Least Expect it

I’ve been told that it, meaning my happily-ever-after, when-my-prince-will–show-up-out-of-no-where- and-into-my-life, will happen when I “least expect it” So I try to do that. Try to go on my daily life not expecting “it” to happen. But deep down inside, I am expecting it, so of course it’s not happening. Make sense? Yeah.. I don’t understand it either.. ;) lol

It’s just.. wouldn’t it seem that the more logical thing to think would be that if you are expecting nothing to happen then nothing will happen? And that if you are expecting something to happen then something will happen.. right? So, I’m told I shouldn’t be trying so hard or worrying to much about it, but how can I not? Just something to think about..

Love,
Sarah

What Women Want..

Daniel: What do women want? I mean, I can't figure it out. They want us to ask; they don't want us to ask; they want us to make a move, not make a move. What do you people want?
Holly: I'll tell you. But you have to promise not to say I told you.
Daniel: I, I swear.
Holly: Because it's a sacred secret.
Daniel: A sacred secret.
Holly: You ready?
Daniel: Yeah.
Holly: You sure?
Daniel: I think so.
Holly: [whispering] We have absolutely no idea what we want.
Daniel: I knew it!
(Movie Quote from PS I Love You)

It’s True. We have no idea what we want. We think we do, but the reality is that we don’t. Like I mention in my Date Doctor post with the quote from Hitch, “the fact is that just like the rest of us, even a beautiful woman doesn't know what she wants until she sees it.” And even then I’m not sure if we know it. I’ve been thinking since my “Exact Love Life” post.. That I really don’t know what I want. I hope that Hitch is right, and that I will know it when I see it.

Sincerely,
Sarah

Invisible

Do you ever feel that you are invisible? Well I have. Many times in my life. I hate it. I don’t know why, perhaps part of it is my shyness. But even in a group of people I know, I can’t help but feel invisible at times. Disregarded and/or forgotten. I say something and it’s as if no one can hear me. Like I don’t matter. I hate feeling this way. :(

Sincerely,
Sarah

Perseverance

A while ago I heard this girl make this comment: “I’m 21 and hopeless in ever getting married.”

And I remember thinkin.. if you’re 21 and hopeless, what does that make me still single at 25? A lost cause?

It’s not easy being a “lost cause” :(

But then I remember the quote I found the other day while I was looking up a quote for my last blog post, from the movie “Hitch” about Perseverance:

Hitch: Do you know the definition of perseverance, Miss Melas?
Sara: An excuse to be obnoxious?
Hitch: Continuing a course of action without regard to discouragement, opposition or previous failure, over

I like that. Continuing a course of action without a regard to discouragement, opposition or previous failure. :)

New Goal: to have Perseverance in all I do. Try I must.. Succeed I will. ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Wanted: Date Doctor

Basic principles: no woman wakes up saying, "God, I hope I don't get swept off my feet today!" Now, she might say, "This is a really bad time for me," or something like, "I just need some space," or my personal favorite, "I'm really into my career right now." You believe that? Neither does she. You know why? Because she's lying to you, that's why. You understand me? Lying! It's not a bad time for her. She doesn't need any space. And she may be into her career, but what she's really saying is, "Uh, get away from me now," or possibly, "Try harder, stupid." But which one is it? Sixty percent of all human communication is nonverbal, body language; thirty percent is your tone. So that means that ninety percent of what you're saying ain't coming out of your mouth. Of course she's going to lie to you! She's a nice person. She doesn't want to hurt your feelings. What else she going to say? She doesn't even know you... yet. Luckily, the fact is that just like the rest of us, even a beautiful woman doesn't know what she wants until she sees it, and that's where I come in. My job is to open her eyes. Basic principles: no matter what, no matter when, no matter who... any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet. He just needs the right broom.
(Hitch)

Does it ever occur to women that maybe a guy might like to have a plan, you know, because he's nervous? He's not sure that he could just walk up to you and you'd respond if he said "I like you." "I like you." "I like you!"

(Hitch.. again)

Some days I really wish I had a “date doctor” Like Hitch. A coach who could help me out in this silly dating game. How can I send hints or signals to a guy that I am into him? It’s not like I could just come out and say it. Why does dating have to be so dang difficult? Seriously. It’s a Lame Game. Period.

Sincerely,
Sarah

WALL

A structure built to protect and surround a position or place for defensive purposes.
(dictionary.com)

Yesterday I did it. I talk to this new boy interest I have. Problem is, he’s shy too. I don’t know if shy + shy= a good idea. (?) We both have these “walls” up. I have been working on letting my down. However, I’m not sure if he is interested in me or if he will ever be interested in putting his wall down to let me in. In thinking about it, one visit doesn’t earn the right for entry. Poco a poco. Little by little. I have to remind myself that he has no idea that I like him. He’s a boy after all. They are clueless. I gotta find a way to show I am interested in getting to know him and him me. Wish me luck. :)

Love,
Sarah

Divine Intervention

Yesterday I was texting STB about a lunch date he had. I wished him luck and told him I’d pray for him. His response? “You really think I need divine intervention? That’s a little harsh.”

I of course didn’t mean it that way. I told him that I figured a little help from on high won’t hurt. Then he started talking about a sniper and how that could hurt. Perhaps, depending on who side he was on. lol.

Anyways, Divine Intervention. He may not need it, but I sure do. I need the Lord every hour. Just like the hymn says. (pg 98) In everything I do.

“For without God I am nothing, but because I know I am a daughter of God, I am everything” Mom (see my post “His Everything” 11/15)

“Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things;” (Alma 26:12)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Pool Analogy

Tonight I went out with a few friends to play pool. I realized.. we can compare pool to dating. In a way.. I mean.. when you have the balls lined up.. you have a greater shot at getting the ball you want in the hole. If you hit it right that is. It takes skill and some practice. It takes aim and some planning. If you don’t plan, and just hit to hit, you most likely won’t get anywhere. Make sense? Tonight while playing there were times when nothing was lined up and there was nothing I could do to get them to line up right. so I just hit to hit with no real plan. But there were other times when I took a shot that I took time preparing my aim and thinking the shot the whole way through. :) There have been times in my dating.. “career” ( I suppose that’s a good word for it) where I have plan it out. Taken time to look at all the different angles and made plan in aiming my shot. Most the time, however, I don’t make it in. It gets easier with practice (so I'm told) in landing that date or two. ;) Also like dating, pool can get very frustrating when things don’t go as planned. Which happens a lot for me. I suppose I should get out there and practice some more.. ;)

Sincerely,
Sarah

The Cuddle Test

It’s Christmas time!! (Yay!) Which means it’s time again for Christmas Wishes. A project my work puts together for the local elementary school every year. The kids make an ornament that list a want and a need- a wish for this Christmas. I love it. :) The community helps take part by choosing one of these ornaments and shop for these young kids in need. They bring the gifts back unwrapped. My job is to wrap them. I love it. :D I love seeing how giving people can be.

Yesterday I came across an adorable stuff teddy bear! :D I couldn’t help but cuddle with him. One of my co-workers told me I wasn’t allowed to do that. I told him that I had to- it was part of my job of quality control. I had to make sure the bear passed the cuddle test. He did. ;) I admit I was tempted to keep him for myself. It was nice having someone to cuddle with. ;) Hehe.

So yeah.. that is the cuddle test. Maybe if I’m lucky I’ll get my own teddy bear to cuddle with Christmas season. ;)

Love,
Sarah

Business Cards

LOL! My sister-in-law Hillary is SO funny! I told her about this new boy interest of mine and how I’m working up the courage to go up and introduce myself, and talk to him. She told me that when she gets her new printer up and working she is going to make me up some little business cards, which are going to say, “Hi. My name is Sarah, and I would like to make your acquaintance. My number is..” So that when I freeze up I can just hand him the card and run! LOL! LOL! :D

Love,
Sarah

Dreamer

I’m not sure if it’s a girl thing or just a me thing, but I can’t help that when I first start dating a guy.. actually before that even lol! I imagine what I’d be like down the road. Like what it would be like to hold his hand, or play with his hair, or even dancing. :) Sometimes I even wonder what it be like to kiss him or what our wedding day would be like. I know! I know! - I’m such a girl!

I think what my problem/ biggest weakness is.. is that I’m a dreamer. I think though that I can make this weakness a strength (Ether 12:27) by my desire to write these make belief stories into novels. I think that is why I’d be a good author. I love to read and I think once I learn how to write I could write a pretty darn good book. ;) Multiple even! I like this plan. :)


Sincerely,
Sarah

Exact Love Life

Recently I watched the chick flick “The Wedding Date” Two lines from the film stuck out to me. The first one is when Kat is talking to Nick about his article.

Kat: “You say, and I quote: ‘Every woman has the exact love life she wants.’ That seems like a broad generalization. Do you honestly believe that I want to be single and miserable?”

Then again, later in the film her Dad brings up and quotes the same line.

“I remember reading a fascination article in the New York Times Magazine once, where this guy said, ‘Every woman has the exact love life she wants.’ You know what? I agree with him. But I refuse to believe this this is what you want, Kat. Ever since you were little, you’ve always worried about what other people think. Now, come on. What do you think?”

I never really thought of that before. “Every woman has the exact love life she wants.” Huh? Do I? I don’t think so, but maybe he has a point. I have worried way too much of what others think, that I hid who I am, and use my shyness as an excuse. Am I really trying to have my ideal love life I think I want?

The second line that stuck out to me, that ties into this thought of mine, is:
“The hardest thing is loving someone and then having then having the courage to let them love you back.”

It’s like my sponge analogy I shared yesterday. It’s hard, like rock hard, to love someone, letting yourself fall- especially lovey dovey love, fairy tale type love. To love someone, and then in return having the courage to let them love you back. Giving your whole heart to this one person, and trusting him to not break it in the end.

In thinking about this, I don’t think I’ve ever allowed myself to give my heart to someone. I’ve always been too afraid. Afraid to fall, and not having a guarantee that someone will be there to catch me. The reality is, the only one who has ever broken my heart is me, by not allowing myself to truly fall. :(

-Sarah

Love Like A Sponge

In Relief Society, for our lesson we talked about love and how we need to love like a sponge.

Let me back up. Annie, our teacher, shared with us an object lesson. She had two volunteers. The first one she asked to use a rock to move water to one bowl to the next. And the second volunteer used a sponge. The sponge had a better result than the rock did. Obviously. ;)

The rock wasn’t able to absorb the water. Some was able to get on the rock and drip off of it when placed above the empty bowl. So it is with our hearts. If we are “cold hearted” and close our hearts and it become as hard as a rock, we can’t absorb, or share love with others.

However with the sponge we could easily absorb the water, and squeeze it out into the empty bowl much easier and faster. :) When we are open to receiving love, then are we able to share that love with others.

We talked about different ways we could share love with others. By serving one another, after all actions speak loader than words. We can show love by hugs (with a squeeze ;)) and/or simply writing a letter and letting those we love know that we love them. ;) There are many ways we can show love.

It is important to love, after all.. it’s a commandment. ;)
John 15:12 “This is my commandment, that ye love one another, as I have loved you.”

Love,
Sarah

Like Royalty

Today for break the fast the brothern of the ward served the sisters, due to us sisters winning the food drive a while back. ;) It was so great being treated like royalty. They showed us to our seat and pulled out our chairs before we sat down. I even went to remove my coat and was stopped by a gentleman who told me he would get that for me. :) It was awesome. I really felt like I was someone special. It was a very nice experience. :)

Love,
Sarah

Somebody to Love

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1bffIJDTrEM&NR=1
Ella Enchanted version of Queen's "Somebody to Love"