Heart and Mind

I write you letters from right to left/ See if you have desire yet/ To decipher what I said/ And learn secrets from my head

It was hard for me to say/ Those three words that are so brave/ Almost kept them locked away/ Deep inside where they'd be safe

Always trying to find/A safer place to hide
Always felt I was protecting my/Heart and mind/But it seems like to really feel alive /I cannot hide /My heart and mind

I don't know why I get shy /Tucked away inside my mind/ Scared to let someone inside /I sit silent in disguise

Always trying to find/ A safer place to hide
Always felt I was protecting my/ Heart and mind/ But it seems like/ to really feel alive /I cannot hide my heart and mind

One day I found a strength inside me/Just by finally realizing/There is a truth that is inside/That I really cannot hide/My heart and mind

(Song Lyrics: Heart and Mind by Kina Grannis)

This song describes me. I find myself sending clues/hints to boys I like, but the reality is they don’t get hints. No matter how obvious they are. And it is so hard to say those three words: I like you. and one day when those feeling grow: I love you. I’ve always kept them hidden away. Never actually said them. why not? well like Kina said, I think I am protecting my heart and mind. I am shy, and I really don’t know why. At times it feels like a curse. I’m just.. scared to let anyone inside. Afraid of getting hurt. Of falling a great height and crashing. Afraid to fall because honestly I don’t believe there is anyone there to catch me. So I hid my feelings inside. I sit silently in disguise. Always feeling that I am protecting my heart and mind. One day.. I hope.. that I’ll be able to come out of hiding. That I will find that guy that will make me feel like I can fly.

Love,
Sarah