Happy Ending

“Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.”
–Gigi from He’s just not that into you.

I love this movie. I was talking to my friend Cathy about wanting to give up. She told me not to, that even though this game is stupid, it will be worth it in the end. I hope she is right. That I’ll find the happy ending I desire. ;)

Love,
Sarah

I’m Sexy and I know it

LOL! What can I say? That’s how I feel today. :) I read once, when I was looking up ways to overcoming my shyness, that it is important to feel good about ones self. If someone feels good about the way they look they are more confident and more able to open up. (aka blossom) I admit, as I was getting ready this morning I had in mind that I will probably most likely see this guy I’ve been interested in (aka crushing) I know, super duper lame dude. It’s true. I’m ridiculous. Like he’ll even notice. But I figure if I feel this great now and keep it up all day I’ll be able to approach him and be able to open up in talking to him, while thinking of course “I am sexy and you know it.” ;) It could work. Right? lol. Did I mention I’m ridiculous? It’s true. I am. Knowing my luck, I’ll probably trip and fall flat on my face causing me not to be sexy at all. :/ lol. It’s a good thing I’ve had practice falling in style. lol.

Sincerely,
Sarah

I Am

I’m an angel, I’m a devil
I am sometimes in between
I’m as bad it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I’m a million colors
Sometimes I’m black and white
I am all extremes
Try figure me out you never can
There’s so many things I am

I am Special
I am Beautiful
I am Wonderful
And Powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things I am

I’m someone filled with self-belief
And haunted by self-doubt
I’ve got all the answers
I’ve got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I’m up and I am down
But that’s part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all the things I am

I am Special
I am Beautiful
I am Wonderful
And Powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things I am

I’m a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I’m perfect
Sometimes I’m a mess
Sometimes I’m not sure who I am

I am Special
I am Beautiful
I am Wonderful
And Powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things I am
Of all the things I AM!

[song lyrics of Hilary Duff’s “I Am”]

I love this song. And singing it is so much fun.
Reminds me of who I am. ;)

Love,
Sarah

Would You Rather..

I was playing with a friend the fun game “Would you rather?” and came across this question: Would you rather be with someone (relationship wise) who was Cocky or had Low Self-Esteem?

My first response was Cocky. But in thinking about it I switch to Low Self-Esteem. But now.. I’m not so sure. Those are two very different extremes and I understand that’s the point of the game.

I thought it be fun to ask my friends what they thought, and of course it was, but it ended up confusing me more. Both sides made really good points.

As for my thoughts.. I feel all of us suffer time to time with some sort of self-esteem issues. Even those who appear to be cocky. I think they too suffer and just are really good at covering it.

So who would I prefer being with? I’m not sure. Honestly I won’t want to be with either extreme. They are both chungo. Someone who is cocky, like really cocky would tear me down. And someone with low self-esteem would be able to bring me down too. :/ (??) Also.. when you think about it, both extremes that are presented in this question are selfish. Me Me Me. Which is why this question is so hard to answer.

So.. for my finale answer.. I would have to say neither. Call me a cheater all you want. For me, I would want someone in the middle. Someone who is *Humble* He knows who he is- A son of God. He doesn’t boast in himself, but in His God. :) That’s who I want to be with, and more importantly who I want to be. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Some girl’s future husband

I’m thinking that to overcome this problem of talking to guys I need to just tell myself that he is some other girl’s future husband, caz mostly it’s true, and also I find I can talk to guys that are “taken” so much easier. I don’t know why that is. I think because it takes off the pressure to impress them. am I making any sense? it’s the single guys that are hard to talk to. I just need to relax and just be myself.

As the saying goes: “Always be yourself because the people that matter don’t mind, and the ones who mind, don’t matter.”

Sincerely,
Sarah

The Bachelor

So you’ve heard of the tv show the Bachelor? I admit I’ve seen an episode. I’ve decided I could never been on that show. I’m not the type that thinks I could win. I’m the type that bows out. I know, because that’s what I do. I see a guy I’m interested in talking to another girl, and think “he must like her.” and I can’t blame him. I like her to.

I got to stop this habit. because it takes away opportunities. I shouldn't be scared of a little competition. So what if a girl has her eye on the same bachelor as me? I have a shot just like her. I am beautiful, and smart, and funny! Any guy would be lucky to be with me. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah

Oh Dad..

My Dad is a funny guy. This morning he sent out mass text to my siblings and me asking us who plans to be to dinner tomorrow night so they can make sure to place a plate for us. I said I will be there, and being the nice daughter I am asked if there was anything I could bring.. his response?.. "Did you want to bring a boyfriend?" I told you. funny funny man. I meant something I could buy at the store. There’s no such thing as a boyfriend store. I think my Dad should just find me a boyfriend. Better yet a husband. I trust his judgment. lol. I think I’d be okay with an arrange marriage. Especially he could find a guy like the one from the movie “the Magic of Ordinary Days” The girl in that movie’s Dad found her a great husband! yeah.. that will work. :)

Sincerely,
Sarah